Press on

I am now 25 weeks pregnant and yes it is true what they say “every pregnancy is different.” This pregnancy is drastically different, in ever way shape and form. And to throw in being a stay at home, homeschooling mom of two little boys 4 & 5. My world is different. I have been taking some time to adjust, putting things on hold (like my blog) and just focusing on the things that I can do and have the time to do. Just when I think, I have some sort of groove, the tune of my life changes and I have to start all over again. My spirits are up and I am giving myself tons of grace! I am learning how to give myself some realistic goals and if I can go above and beyond one day, then great. But if I just meet that one goal, wonderful. And if don’t accomplish anything I set out to do then there is grace!

I am truly grateful for my relationship with the Lord and learning to lean on Him in this time (and every time) Focusing on my relationship with the Lord has to be #1. So, recently I have been  following along with Good Morning Girls / Women Living Well more consistently, to help keep me accountable. I even started on online Facebook group which had been fabulous. I have been reading more, and taking time to inhale and exhale more. This has been a challenge and like I said before, sometimes I don’t get everything done, and I am ok with that.

At Good Morning Girls online ministry we are on break right and will pick back up in the Fall, however, I like to keep going and encourage my group to do the same. So we are continuing in Psalms. We read the first 20 chapters at the beginning of the summer before we start reading Proverbs and Song of Solomon with GMG. We have picked back up in Psalm starting with chapter 21. Today is day two in chapter 22 and I love idea of going back and forth in Psalms. The way David and some of the other writers write is truly encouraging as most people will agree on. One of the things I like most, is how transparent David is. In all of his low points, challenges, hurts, good news & bad news, he never looses sight of who His God is. Even when it may look like the Lord has left, David without a  doubt knows who God is, The I AM. This motivates me to stay closes to my Creator no matter what my life may look like or how people will treat me.

I encourage everyone to continue to push pass and see pass your current situation and find hope in Jesus.

Thanks for reading!!

Also, here is my Youtube link: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCVlg_D6J0qc98ux4f8gd4Ag/videos

P.S. It’s a boy! 🙂

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Mild Winter depression, and First Trimester!

Hey Everyone!

It has definitely been a while! But I have survived the bitter cold winter and I am ending my first trimester of pregnancy! Yes, I am pregnant! So much life has happened in the past few months and I have so many things to write about and not sure where exactly to begin!

My last post was at the end of January and I was fighting mild depression at the time. Then February came and, BAM I was in a “funk”. Winter blues is what some call it and for the past two winters it has caught me off guard. I tried different things to motivate and inspire me but it was a struggle. (Some of you may be able to understand) Most day to day stuff got done but it was hard to focus on myself and what was healthy for me. My diet suffered and my goals. I put whatever energy I had into maintaining my home & family.

Just as winter was ending and spring was approaching, I was able to exhale. A couple of days into spring is when my son told me I was pregnant. And I was! Last fall my husband and I talk about having more children and I ask my sons how they would feel about having a little brother or sister. They loved the idea and were super excited. I had to explain to them, that I wasn’t pregnant and it would be up to God if He desired more children for us and when. My oldest son at the time was 4 and my youngest son was 3, so of course my explanation went right over their heads! It wasn’t until January of this year my oldest would ask me all of the time, if there was a baby in my belly and when will I have a baby and I always gave him the same answer; it is up to God. Late January he said to me (my oldest) “mommy, are you going to have a baby in January or December?” My answer was the same and I also let him know I would not be having a baby any time soon!

March 23rd, we were heading out to the library and my youngest was banging on my belly (as they often do, they call it a drum) and he asked (being silly) “mommy what’s that?” pointing to my belly, and I said it my belly. My oldest came over touch my belly and said, “Mommy there is a baby in there.” I was shocked, I didn’t even answer him because I really wasn’t sure (I am terrible about keeping track of my cycle). Later that evening we were all out with my husband and I told him what our son said and my husband said, “No way” and I said, “Well lets just get a test to check.” He was reluctant because we took one the previous month and it was negative. Anyway, I took it and well, it was POSITIVE!

I am not due in December but my due date is towards the end of November so if this baby is late, my son would have assumed right.

We are excited, and of course the 1st trimester was tough. Praise the Lord it is coming to an end!

I have a tons of things to share with you (and it is not all pregnancy related) and I hope to be posting regularly now!

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Thanks for reading!!

Life of a servant,

AJ

“I am the Lord’s servant…” Luke 1:38

Life of Servant…serving God & others

Some people may read the name of this blog “Life of Servant” and wonder what it is all about. Why do I proudly call myself a servant. So I thought I would explain a little. 🙂

When we think of the word servant, some people may initially have a negative perspective about the word. I believe it can go both ways, and since we know so much about the negative of side I thought I would share some positivity on how I see myself as a servant.

Servant: one devoted to another or to a cause

I was created to worship and to serve. Period. Who I choose to worship and serve is my choice, but I will (by default) worship and serve something or someone. And if you did not know by now, I choose to worship and serve the Lord.

What does this mean and what does this look like? Well, it will mean and look different for everyone.

We were designed this way, whether you agree or not. If you look at your life and reflect, you will begin to see things and people, you worship and serve. It could be your job, family, money, church, people, stuff, etc.

How do I serve the Lord?

Well, I serve in many ways; I serve my husband, my children, my home and different ministries in and out of the church. The center of it all, the core or the heart, is that I do everything unto the Lord. This is not my “job” this is my devotion to Adonai/the Lord. It is a great privilege to be able to serve the Lord and the “fruit” from serving, overflows in my life in so many ways. I am truly blessed to be used for His glory and to make His name great, so others can see  and know who God is.

Being Adonai’s servant gives me the opportunity to reveal His character.  How do I do this? I surrender my wants and desires and allow Him to direct my day, giving me the wisdom so I know who and what I should serve. Calling myself a servant, keeps me humble and takes the focus off of me and helps me to see, it is not about me. We live in a very “Me” centric world and this causes a lot of people to be driven my selfish actions. It is not easy for me to be a servant and I struggle A Lot! Which is why I need a savior to help me be all that He created me to be and do.

Ever since I choose to be a servant, I felt liberated and free from the bondages of the world. I started  to see my purpose and this brings me joy and happiness which is not defined by the world.

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How and what do you serve?

Life of a servant.

AJ